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#008

Friday, 21 October 2011 // 0 comments



we were just kids in

I'm gonna pisstt off from a school for a week. For Deepavali holiday, I'm not celebrate it because I a Muslim. But for a week I need to done my account. We're need to complete by computer. So, for a week I'll done all of that. Sometimes, feel too tired for this kind of thing. I'm getting pressure because of this. I felt frustrated because of this too. Actually it's time for break. But want or do not, I have too. #whatever ! A week of holiday is what I've been waiting for. Opppa :) I'll update all my vacation time soon, Insyaallah. Bye, off for the two weeks.

#007

Monday, 17 October 2011 // 0 comments

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Could I ran away to my dreamland and hiding myself from the world full of mess ? Can I throw all the mess like I'm throw the rubbish. Yeah the mess was the rubbish. It's mine rubbish ! I've been a lot of hard part in my life. And never seen that this daddy little girl, really mess. I have problems, you have problems. Everyone either. But the way we're solve and forget it, I'll shut up my mouth. I don't know what I'm typing now, but this is my second diary after my heart. From heart-to mouth-to tears-and to the second diary, my blog. Why be a problem, because the world always have their own problems. Try myself to forget the black memories and push myself to out from this rubbish world. Isn't easy enough. It's reminds me what Adele said in her song someone like you-'Nothing compares, no worries or cares, regrets and mistakes, they're memories made' Seem like I could forget a black shadow that still haunts myself, my live, my world. I'm hard to believe human, trauma, susceptive that what past have made me know. The girl who is typing this entries. That is her. When a day my brother told me a song that fynn jamal feat with. I just stared the lyrics. It's really like what I've been through this long journey. From I in age 9 until 16, that can not be described ;


Toeiie

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

pasti kau hairan bagaimana selepas bertahun
aku tetap teguh, utuh, tak roboh, tekun, pegun
kau cipta aku untuk kau musnah di bila perlu
kau bina aku dengan tipu mimpi bohong palsumu

mungkin kau tak tau sepenuhnya yang aku ini
sebenarnya phoenix yang takkan pernah akan mati
ku sentiasa kembali
walau dibagi api
walau terhancur diri
tetap ku gagah berdiri

kalau kau fikir aku bodoh kerna mencintai
kau lebih bodoh kerana fikir aku akan pergi
lagi kau pedang aku
lagi kau pijak henyak sepak caci maki aku
lagi kebal rusukku

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

tak cukup buat aku mati
tak cukup buat aku mati

aku masih bernafas dan aku takkan lemas
dengan cabaran dugaanku hadapi ku takkan tewas
namun aku dibenci, dihina dan dimaki
ku akan gagah berdiri walaupun halangan menanti

ingin ku memberitahu kepada kau yang ku cintai
namun kau tak mengerti apa yang terpendam dalam hati
apa orang berkata akan ku tolak ke tepi
kerna engkau yang ku nanti dan ku terimpi-impi

my heart was hurt deep ya'll can listen to my heartbeat
the wound is getting deeper my blood is getting thicker
but i'm stronger than you, boo, you can't keep me away
my phoenix will be by my side you gotta step aside!

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

tak cukup buat aku mati
tak cukup buat aku mati

mungkin sebenarnya
ku mahu percaya
yang mungkin bila kau lihat ini semua akan kau celik mata

mungkin satu masa
setiap setia
dapat memujuk kubu kerasmu untuk dibuka pintunya

everybody cursed me cuz i got no loyalty
it was you all along been cheating on me
you wanna fight fire with fire, come stab me with a knife
if that's what you want it come on give it a try!

you dead wrong if you think my phoenix gonna die
i'm still standing right here waving you good bye
all these years all the pain and the suffer i take
every breath you take you gonna regret when you're dead!!

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

mati. 

Mean to me a lot, the memories that couldn't erase. Thanks to Allah for gave me a chance to open my eyes and improve my life. Sincerely, Shahera Anna Sophie.

#006

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Yes, now 0324 a.m. Instead, I was being rocked a dream, but other things that I do in this time, updating my blog. Gorgeous ! From the sleep was enjoyable, I'd prefer to face the computer. Yup, she's weirdo. Always think that what she selected by her, was the best be elected. But she never known that, each time a selected direction by her, is totally wrong. Now, I have stuck up. So, I wanna update random entries. Okey-doke I'd talk about FOOD ! Food is everything, food is my boyfriend and for me, for is more important than L-O-V-E. #lol #over


WEAR MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE
The most food I loved, Ice-cream.


Sugar ♨ Café
Italian food was the best after, masakan kampung.

Who's doesn't love food ? Pick up your hand and slap your face three times. For now, I've never heard 'I hate food'. BOO-BOO ! I really don't like people said that their want to loose off their body weight. Hey, girls and boys. You're no need to pretend like your weight is already obese. Yeah, obese doesn't good things happen to us. Include me ! But I'll never on diet because if I'm on diet, my weight shall increased. So, to make the nightmare from happening. I'm eat, eat eat and eat. For this time I remembered what ustazah said to my classmate 'stop eating before full and people who ate until full, at the time of his death will be difficult'. Seriously, quite scary but fact. So as a Muslim and Muslimah, we're should punctuation prayers before meals. Sometimes, I can't even now when I feeling of fullness, lol. Of course  good health be considered as important, then it should the delicious food. Exciting if I can be there near the pizza shop now. Oh no, I should stop. This morning, I'll has Islamic education examinations. I just do not do much preparation for the exam. I think I should get off from this computer now. Bye Bye, XOXO 


I have long believed that good food, good eating is all about risk. For me, has always been an adventure.


#005

Friday, 14 October 2011 // 0 comments



Piccsy :: eternal struggle


#Entries talk about exam PART 1

Good Morning ! Wake up sunshine, let a smile be your style today ! Last night, be my worse night and day for this year and today was here. Knowing what happen next. Seriously, yesterday I don't watcha happen, for the first time I'm not in mood to completed my test. And more difficult the fact I have to face was it is a math test !!! If my mom will know what stupid thing that I've done on it, I think I'm gonna DIED. "Well, this day was totally waste up and I'm one of those bad things that happen to good people" - Those words are on my mind and make me felt really down. Tears on my eyes dropping on the desk. But that was past for today. What I've done before I could not changed or repaired it. So, better to get off bitch fucking loser mood cause I need focus on other subject. Oh, sepanjang exam week, honestly I look like gambling face, my mind not step on it function and it's not function as well as it could. 
Account : Not really okay
English : Okay but paper 1 seriously I need more time !!
Math : Fuck, I don't want remember 'bout it !!!
Bahasa Melayu : Okay
ICT : Okey


 And others subject will come up soon.. 

#004

Friday, 7 October 2011 // 0 comments


Random Quotes, Profile Quotes, Girly Quotes, Random Saying

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While the clouds cloudy weather out there, I am swept away by imagination. I immediately saddled with mountains rising expectations. A big hope of mine. Despite my efforts are not in favor of, I believe I can, One day. Exam goes well today, but I'm not done well on it. It's account dude ! Actually, I might learn from it. Don't be lazy, be double and over diligent. LOL just, one day :)  I'll take it as a serious thing. Ok, #whatever happen on my result. I'll blame myself. Blame myself because being lazy, do not take anything serious, etc. I need someone force me, would you ? either me or you, need people to force us to make unbelieve be something we don't expect. 


#003

Thursday, 6 October 2011 // 0 comments

ℳissing ℋim
but sometimes the mistakes shouldn't repeated

While I'm keep thinking about my account, I think I should don't even care about it. You know why, it because the teacher told my classmate that the last due date to send the account project was on yesterday. But yesterday never being back again and today was today. Plus, My mom not at home because picking up my brother at Segamat. He's getting holidays sem. How fun he is. While I'm waiting my mom back home, I being a mom. I'm the big boss now. Oh yeah, barely I cooking to my siblings, that I know I have a talent in cooking. Even, me just now how to fried prawn, fish, chicken soup  and etc. but it was good matter. I'm trying, at least. Talk about it, it made me remember about my brother asked me to make kari. So, just the way my brother trick me to do it. I just do own he's way, but a bit my way :) Then, I put coconut milk but exceedingly. LOL He mad at me, I can't imagine how made he on me. #blah It taking long time to do it, seriously. Made kari is not easy. Heretofore, I still can't learn how to cook it. But I'm still can cooking. I might cook for my parents, my cats, my children and my woohooo :D Anteriorly, listening to Fynn Jamal 150 juta. Honestly, this song really sweetlicious. Anyway, my mind kept thinking, can I do account tomorrow or just do on your way ?! you know what I mean, what I learn, that was my way. the way I give attention and understanding it. Plus, misunderstanding too. My heart mess, my mind mess, and I mess. Everything messy ah ! I want sleep, but my I won't it close. Ah, mess ! How much I mess, 1000 % My mood changing : mess and I should better get enough sleep. Good night. bye bye..

#002

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The tiring afternoon, make me realize that I've let pile of school homework. My mind filled with snarl, and I can't let myself control it. Because of the account project, I being like this. Yes, I blame my account project at all. Because of it, I've spend my day done you, just because of you. It  make realize too, that tomorrow is final exam. But still sitting a while and blogging. Just like nothing happen tomorrow or because i'm too smart?! #duhh Wake up Shahe, you just an ordinary girl that always forget things easily. You know what, it's taking along time to edit my blog and I've open Google and type how the best easy way to study last minute. It's sound nonsense, but Google it's everything :) Like an ordinary girl like me, I can't read the pile of book everyday, because I'm too lazy but except math I need study and cover all the chapter on that night #fact. OMG by now I need done my project account and tomorrow exam account. Posted ! But the good thing is now my mind filled with account, and I can Google about account. Haha, you might think that whole my life I depending on the Google. The answer it NO ! The first thing of course Tuhan Yang Maha Besar but Google just additional information. 'Study up long bridge China'.  Wish me luck and I'll be lock my blog for a while.

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Today, I'm gonna post two story one what has been describe earlier and two it about one person that I'm fed up with. Yes,  I fed up with her but I'm never fed up with my life ! She's gross. The way she talk, words that out from her mouth make me down down and down. She always make me quail. I won't to hate you, but I most hate the way you treat me. Backstabber, do not know appreciating someone and pretending. Don't turn me from a nice girl to suck bitch. Because I don't want it let to be, too. Last day, you say that I not eligible to study and being smart, YES and YES. I can't be smart but I can be half smart. You know what everyone always do's wrong, including me and you too. I'm never being perfect but this is the way I am. Maybe I'm just clumsy girl, but I not pretending. I just being me. Being me, girl ! You make my heart hurt and my eyes produce tears and I hope you can pay all it back. Nothing much I want from you, just know me well and please try to understand me at all. Love you much :'( sincerely people dwarf


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