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Monday, 17 October 2011 // 0 comments

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Could I ran away to my dreamland and hiding myself from the world full of mess ? Can I throw all the mess like I'm throw the rubbish. Yeah the mess was the rubbish. It's mine rubbish ! I've been a lot of hard part in my life. And never seen that this daddy little girl, really mess. I have problems, you have problems. Everyone either. But the way we're solve and forget it, I'll shut up my mouth. I don't know what I'm typing now, but this is my second diary after my heart. From heart-to mouth-to tears-and to the second diary, my blog. Why be a problem, because the world always have their own problems. Try myself to forget the black memories and push myself to out from this rubbish world. Isn't easy enough. It's reminds me what Adele said in her song someone like you-'Nothing compares, no worries or cares, regrets and mistakes, they're memories made' Seem like I could forget a black shadow that still haunts myself, my live, my world. I'm hard to believe human, trauma, susceptive that what past have made me know. The girl who is typing this entries. That is her. When a day my brother told me a song that fynn jamal feat with. I just stared the lyrics. It's really like what I've been through this long journey. From I in age 9 until 16, that can not be described ;


Toeiie

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

pasti kau hairan bagaimana selepas bertahun
aku tetap teguh, utuh, tak roboh, tekun, pegun
kau cipta aku untuk kau musnah di bila perlu
kau bina aku dengan tipu mimpi bohong palsumu

mungkin kau tak tau sepenuhnya yang aku ini
sebenarnya phoenix yang takkan pernah akan mati
ku sentiasa kembali
walau dibagi api
walau terhancur diri
tetap ku gagah berdiri

kalau kau fikir aku bodoh kerna mencintai
kau lebih bodoh kerana fikir aku akan pergi
lagi kau pedang aku
lagi kau pijak henyak sepak caci maki aku
lagi kebal rusukku

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

tak cukup buat aku mati
tak cukup buat aku mati

aku masih bernafas dan aku takkan lemas
dengan cabaran dugaanku hadapi ku takkan tewas
namun aku dibenci, dihina dan dimaki
ku akan gagah berdiri walaupun halangan menanti

ingin ku memberitahu kepada kau yang ku cintai
namun kau tak mengerti apa yang terpendam dalam hati
apa orang berkata akan ku tolak ke tepi
kerna engkau yang ku nanti dan ku terimpi-impi

my heart was hurt deep ya'll can listen to my heartbeat
the wound is getting deeper my blood is getting thicker
but i'm stronger than you, boo, you can't keep me away
my phoenix will be by my side you gotta step aside!

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

tak cukup buat aku mati
tak cukup buat aku mati

mungkin sebenarnya
ku mahu percaya
yang mungkin bila kau lihat ini semua akan kau celik mata

mungkin satu masa
setiap setia
dapat memujuk kubu kerasmu untuk dibuka pintunya

everybody cursed me cuz i got no loyalty
it was you all along been cheating on me
you wanna fight fire with fire, come stab me with a knife
if that's what you want it come on give it a try!

you dead wrong if you think my phoenix gonna die
i'm still standing right here waving you good bye
all these years all the pain and the suffer i take
every breath you take you gonna regret when you're dead!!

ah~ha aku masih lagi bernafas
ah~ha aku masih tak duli kebas
ah~ha lihat aku yang tetap bangun kembali--
kakimu tak cukup buat aku mati

mati. 

Mean to me a lot, the memories that couldn't erase. Thanks to Allah for gave me a chance to open my eyes and improve my life. Sincerely, Shahera Anna Sophie.

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